family

the ones i love
the ones who matter
the ones who will always care
the ones that i will always need
one look at them and all i see
is the love of my life
what was ment to be
i missed them so much
but i miss you more
but i guess you already shut the door
if not one heart
then one hand
let us have this friendship
lets re-begin
some say no
some say sure
some say they just want me happy
happy?
content is all i can muster
lately apethetic
is all i can amount to
depression behind me
like footprints in sand
sunset before me
day about to end
sun rise, i await
to see the clouds in the sky
birds sing a new song
breath in the air
but let me not walk this path alone
let me have this friendship
just this one
in circles i'll walk
if our hands aren't one

today...

today's the day i finally live

the day i take a breath anew

take that painful step away

and step out of the blue

heartbeats falter

and hands still shake

but lessons learned

none the less

it hurt you know

i died you see

but with each step

comes clarity

family awaits

children smiling

brother and sisters with weary grins

awaiting the next chapter

i have turned the page

and pick a pen

i now write

not knowing how to end

i love you once

and i love you twice

but enough is enough

today's the day i step away