loss for word

don't start this again... please just... dont
this is ridiculous.
i am not in the mood for this drama.
i am trying so hard to understand you
we promised to be more honest and open to each other
i am only one guy
i cant understand everything

you hate my family
i get it
but can't you just tolerate them?
so what he gets mad everyday?
he is just one person.

but then again...
im just one person.
but i love you
and all i want is to make you happy
im try i swear i am
but i have run out of things to say.
i am so lost
i just...
i dont get it

you are mad and upset
i get that
but when i ask why
you just put yourself down
i am trying hard to make you happy and help you
but i cant
i never can
i can't make you smile anymore
i cant do anything right for you
and
i hate myself for it

i just..
im at a loss for words